I am not saying this because I know my parents will read it.
I’m being fully honest. :)
It's been a couple of years I've been saying you can't have an
opinion on something without trying it before. Experience before words,
basically. I don’t like hypocrisy and I try to run away from it as much as I
can; it’s very easy falling in its easiness.
I’ve always held huge respect toward drugs, but curiosity
too. I had heard of some that led to awesome experiences and I was truly
curious about how would they feel. My sensation about it was 80%
respect(fear)/20% curiosity. Therefore, I stayed away from it until I thought
that maybe I could try some.
All that joy, oblivion, hype, relaxation, laugh, excitement,
distraction, love, sadness, reflexion, creativity and silence that came with
the experience were spectacular! I enjoyed it and hold good memories of it. But
there was always guilt; there was a message I couldn’t read, but I knew it said
something important.
What I realised was that everything that they gave me was
sensations I had experienced before, but this time I got them with no effort behind. What I mean is: you
didn’t have to help anyone to feel that immense happiness, you didn’t have to
play 3 hours of football after two study-weeks to experience the hype,
distraction and relaxation; you didn’t need to stare at green-brownish eyes to
feel love and enjoy the silence of this connection.
I could have all these sensations, but when they were gone I
would be empty instead of fulfilled. I would realise the falsehood of the
emotions. Furthermore, I believe that in the long run I would get tired of this
emotions and they would become bare simple sensations, instead of the luxuries
they used to be.
This is for every kind of drugs, alcohol included.
After all this realisation, something else came: I don’t
need anything to enjoy a party! I’m fun as I am, independently from drugs or
anything that shows up when the neon lights are on.
I don’t know, everything sounds terribly cliché. These are
my thoughts about it, but I encourage everyone to try new things. The
peacefulness and happiness I find in my 100% of the time mind-control can be
found somewhere else. I don’t hold the true, this is just an opinion.
